If it helps, you’re not alone. I’ve spent decades of my life pursuing a career, and in the past five or so years I’ve come to realize I will never accomplish the things I used to dream about, like making an impact in my little field, etc. It’s a really, really unpleasant realization. The only silver lining I can find for myself (and it is helpful) is that I can let go of the “must excel” and “must go above and beyond” mentalities. It frees up time and mental resources.
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The phrase “based off of.” It’s always been stupid. I’m still ahead of the curve because many people still think it’s OK. It’s not.
Depends on where in Canada. Toronto? Vancouver? Montreal? Oy, insane real estate prices. Bumfuck, Alberta? Manitoba? Rural anywhere? Much cheaper.
And regardless of the price I could afford the utility and maintenance on a condo or apartment in a major city in Canada (if I could ever afford one) much more easily than on a castle in France. Not a great comparison.
My kid would like to still have a dad. One who is, ideally, not in prison or dead.
I’ve taught statistics for over 20 years. I flipflop on this constantly, sometimes in the middle of a sentence. Even more disturbing: I don’t have a consistent position, at least grammatically, on whether it’s singular or plural.
This is a great list and thanks for posting it.
Also, the pixelfed guy needs to give up full control of his project (no matter how nicely or reasonably he argues “not yet”). I have asked on mastodon and nobody seems to know of anyone else who truly understands the project so if he dies or gets disappeared the project… Dies? Maybe? More concerningly, it isn’t open source. He cotes good reasons for this (the massive labor to refactor and whatever else goes into open sourcing a functioning project), but he also occasionally humblebrags about being offered huge sums of money to sell it to corporations. I suspect it will become corporate at some point if he doesn’t open source it soon.
I absolutely would not trust myself, but I also feel deeply that I should be allowed to test this hypothesis with lived experience.
Speak for yourself.
Feeling this very hard. It took me a few decades to find a partner like that. Very happy you have one.
Kids with ADHD often have days and weeks and months and years in which almost every interaction with a parent or teacher is mostly negative. It doesn’t take long for this conditioning to make kids feel bad about themselves–e.g., see themselves as stupid and lazy–and feel bad about the parents and teachers. They often become secretive or otherwise avoid the people they’ve had thousands of bad experiences with.
If there’s any way to shift that balance, it will be powerful for your daughter and for your relationship with her later. Sometimes this means just letting go of certain things. Sometimes it means letting her get away with stuff. If she has siblings, it probably means looking like you’re treating your kids unfairly. Sometimes it might mean reaching out with love and kindness when there seems to be no chance that will be received well. You can potentially be one of the best things in her life, but the path of least resistance–and the path that “normal” parenting leads to–is a world where you are an agent of unpleasantness or punishment for her more often than of happiness and comfort.
As she grows up she will learn lots of things adults need to know; some quickly, some very slowly. She’ll need help at a lot of points, and if you can be a person she asks for help, her life will be better. When she’s 20 or 30 she’ll be independent and living a life, no matter what your parenting style was. At that point, the relationship she has with you depends a lot on her accumulated memory and gut-level conditioning from years of being around you.
I’m choking up as I write this because I have a daughter and I know I’m not a perfect dad. I want very much to have a good relationship with her as she grows up, and I know I don’t always make that easy. It’s a huge challenge. I say this because what I wrote sounds really preachy; I’m preaching to myself as much as to anyone else.
I think ADHD often does to us sort of what some other conditions do to others: beats us down. By the time we reach adulthood, we’ve learned from millions of experiences not to bother with certain things. At the same time, many adults I know with ADHD are much more anxious, especially in social or work situations, than they appear.
Seriously, neither you nor your therapist knows unless you get assessed by a qualified psychologist with experience doing this. Everyone has some characteristics of ADHD (to put it like that) because ADHD is just exaggeration/minimization/mistargeting of functions everyone has. Whether your pattern fits the disorder can be difficult to know without a good assessment.
It’s your brain. Advice like “think of what could you have done differently” or “slow down and consider the consequences,” etc. does not help in the least, because the part of your brain that does the thinking and the considering and the slowing down is the part that has the problem.
As some witty folks have put it, LLMs can’t give you anything truly, interestingly new when all they’re capable of is some weighted average of what’s already there. And I’ll be clear in saying I hate with the force of a tsunami the way AI is being shoved at us by desperate CEOs, and how it’s being used to kill labor, destroy copyright law, increase income inequality, destroy the environment, and increase the power of huge corporations headed by assholes like Altman and Musk. But AI is getting pretty good at that weighted-average-of-what’s-out-there, and a lot of the work done in several industries can benefit from that. For me, one of the great perversities or tragedies of AI is that it could be a targeted, useful tool but, instead, it’s a hammer to further erode freedom. Even the coders, editors, advertisers, educators, etc. using it to do their jobs are participating in a short-term selloff of their profession to their CEOs, shareholders, etc. at the expense of large numbers of their colleagues or potential colleagues who will now never get jobs.
It’s like if someone invented the wheel and Sam Altman immediately patented it and sold it to Raytheon.
I have a very good friend who is brilliant and has slogged away slowly shifting the sometimes-shitty politics of a swing state’s drug and alcohol and youth corrections policies from within. She is amazing, but she has a reading disorder and is a bit neuroatypical. Social niceties and honest emails that don’t piss her bosses or colleagues off are difficult for her. She jumped on ChatGPT to write her emails as soon is it was available, and has never looked back. It’s been a complete game changer for her. She no longer spends hours every week trying to craft emails that strike that just-right balance. She uses that time to do her job, now.
Yeah, that’s a possibility. However, as some Mastodon folks said recently, no platform is forever. Signal’s prospects seem reasonable to me, right now. If they co corporate and enshittify next week, I won’t feel my time and investment with them was a waste, nor my financial support (which hasn’t been much, tbh).
ha. That site is fun. I’m also clueless about some of it. Do you know what the “Come and find it” shirt references? I have a couple of guesses, but I really don’t know.
This is some good info about Matrix, thanks. I’ve been considering it as a Discord alternative.
According to almost every photo I take, about 3 degrees off.
Pretty sure this is a psychophysics question, though I don’t know that field well enough to know what’s there.